The question is not... How bad does it have to get?
The question is ...How much better could it be?
Its ok to admit to yourself you are drinking more than you are comfortable with.
Its ok to question your drinking before you land in jail, the hospital, or local unemployment office.
Its ok to be afraid of questioning your drinking because you have secretly started to depend on it, and you are not sure you can easily give it up.
I was right there with you on a loop of getting up early, making my kids’ lunches, staying under the radar being average at work, driving carpool and then coming home to make dinner and have a “few glasses” of wine to unwind.
The few glasses turned into me staying up too late for “alone time”, then waking up with shame. I would use the guilt of drinking too much to fuel me to get out of bed early, feeling anxious, foggy, tired, and slightly ill every day.
I’d get the coffee...
Alcohol creates a land mine of workplace risk, yet when someone comes to the hiring table as recovered, we get very nervous. Our first thought is to turn them away. Why is this? We fear relapse, of course, and turnover. We have a hard time trusting them. Plus, how strange for someone to not join in the drinking culture at Happy Hours, networking events, and beer cart Fridays. We don’t know how to handle sober people and it makes us very uncomfortable.
I get it. I was in HR and I understand your fear. Not drinking is a rebellion against the cultural norm. Many companies feed their employees drinks as a reward for good behavior, or a week long all-you-can-drink vacation for really good behavior.
We don’t want to hire alcoholics or people with alcohol problems. We do want to hire people that drink, but drink the right way, and the right amount. People that will drink the two drink tickets they were given at an event, and not get out of hand. We all know the person with a...
I have started a Sober Meet Up Group for women. The goal of the group is to gain support and create a community for people considering quitting drinking, people in recovery, or for people that are sober for any reason. During our Meet Ups we share stories, conversation, support, tears and laughter over a cup of coffee at the back table of a local cafe.
Gathering under the knowledge that we have struggled with our relationship with alcohol creates an immediate connection between strangers. We feel we already know each other and the conversation digs deep right from the start. Thank Goodness because social anxiety and a dislike for small talk are common characteristics of the group.
Many of the women who are brave enough to show up have been in abusive relationships with men. Abusive relationships are the problem, and alcohol has been the solution. Alcohol is the coping tool. Alcohol is the medication to cure the symptoms of dealing with a man who has emotionally and...
I am not only recovering from my alcohol dependence, in getting sober, I have had to address other issues in my life. One issue is perfectionism.
I think having a goal of perfection in all areas of my life, contributed to my alcohol problem in many ways.
I was gladly categorized as the elite “I don’t know how she does it!” club.
My house was clean.
I was running races.
I had impressive sales jobs and a happy marriage.
I made healthy meals for my kids.
I would wake up after a night of drinking before everyone to clean the kitchen and serve breakfast.
This all led to the denial that alcohol was taking over me and becoming a bigger problem in my life.
If anyone dared to mention my concerning drinking behavior, I put up my defenses. I didn’t want to have a problem, so if I didn’t admit a problem, then there was no problem.
The problem was other people. Not me. I’m perfect. I...
On my first Forever Sober Saturday we went to a concert with friends. It was a bit of a mistake. I didn’t know I would suddenly be sober and we didn’t realize our friends actually bought tickets for us, when we half committed months ago. I was kinda pissed at my husband, because he paid for tickets and now we were obligated to go. I didn’t want to go. I probably did when we pencilled it in months ago, but now I had a preparty and a concert with a group of drinkers for my first Sober Saturday. I was scared. I was scared because at the time, being sober meant that I just read my book, washed my face and went to bed when it got dark out, like a pure little angel every night. That was the only way I knew how to be sober in the beginning (and for a long time after that too). Here is what I wrote in my journal at the time:
We didn’t realize someone actually bought us tickets to this live music event and preparty for tomorrow. We decide to go. I am...
I am trying to do a thing and it terrifies me.
Today, I am hosting my first webinar. And its LIVE.
And my sister in law has a serious doctor appointment today and so I am picking up her kids from daycare. They are 2 and 5 years old.
The 2 year old makes my dog very nervous.
So I will have 2 little ones and a nervous dog in the house for my first LIVE webinar.
Plus two teenage daughters, who are typically pretty helpful, but its the end of the summer and it might kinda depend on the day.
My husband is traveling for work.
The timing of all this is such, that everyone will be hungry while I try to host these webinars.
When I went to test all the technology today, none of it was working.
Actually, it all disappeared completely.
So on the day of my first webinar, I had NO webinar and none of the registrant links worked.
I am so beyond grateful that people are showing up for this and then I just thanked them with a sketchy link that...
Riviera Maya Mexico, 2019
We booked an all inclusive vacation at the Hard Rock Hotel. For the first time ever I am excited about sober vacation and not nervous at all. I can’t wait to experience everything sober. I am a little curious if I will feel like I am missing out, especially at such a Rockstar Hotel, or if vacation is different than real life and I might want to drink, because...vacay?
We land and I get a virgin pina colada at the airport. It is the best dessert drink I have ever tasted. Frozen, creamy, fresh and so darn good. I have never enjoyed a drink so much. The way the freeze melts in the heat and how I slurp the freshest juice ever tasted is pure joy.
We get to our hotel and we are served non alcoholic pina coladas and strawberry daiquiris while we check in. I say yes to everything offered. We arrive in time for me to check out the adult only side of the resort where the yoga temple and spa are located. I participate in an oceanside...
I celebrated 500 Days Sober with an all inclusive Hard Rock Riviera Maya Mexico Vacay for me and my family. I saved enough money from not drinking, that I could buy this vacation 2 ½ times. A sober vacation making memories is way better than endless bottles of wine making blackouts. But first let me share the history of vacations and drinking!
Costa Rica 2016
Spring Break 2016 I went with my family and my 2 childhood best friends and their families to an all inclusive resort in Costa Rica. It was a dream trip of a lifetime and we had a great time. But let me tell you about the drinking part of the vacation and my personal war within.
I was a little disappointed that I could not drink all the red wine I wanted, ALL THE TIME.
I thought that is what was meant by “all inclusive”.
Isn’t that the perk of all inclusive?
Doesn’t “all inclusive” = “all you can drink”?
I had to actually go up to a bar and order...
500 Days Sober!
It feels so amazing!
500 days ago it felt like I HAVE to be sober to save my life, this is so hard.
But today its transformed into, I GET to be sober every day, this is the single best thing that ever happened to me!
What a big, giant, beautiful gift the Universe has given me.
I am so grateful for the circumstances of my life to bring me this opportunity.
Its true that alcohol had one of her nasty claws in me and wine was taking me down. Alcohol was 99% to blame for my mental health issues, depression and anxiety. Alcohol put a wall between me and everyone I loved. For a hot minute (or a few years) I thought I loved alcohol more than anything. I put this love first. It wasn’t really love, but it was dependence.
Alcohol made me physically sick, and it messed with my mind. I couldn’t get rid of it despite the horrible consequences from taking it.
Anyone who has experienced a...
You’re sober but you still want to socialize and you aren’t sure how to handle it when someone offers you a drink. Its anxiety provoking to have to figure out how to turn down a drink.
That was a hard part about going out sober for me.
Worrying about other people’s reactions. I would turn down a drink and just hold my breath and wait for the responses, and wonder how I would handle them.
Here’s the thing, when you make a change it's uncomfortable for other people. Here's the other thing it's not your job to comfort them.
You just take care of you and they will figure it out.
After a few practice rounds its gets easier. Soon people stop asking. It's worthy to note someone’s reaction to you not drinking says a lot more about them than it does about you.
Nowadays, I still get invited to things. People still want to hang with me. It's just known that I don’t drink. I feel really proud of it, but I was shaky in the beginning when I was trying on a...