I used to be gone drinking every Memorial Day. It was tradition. I was pretending to have so much fun in pools and boats. Some of it was fun. Some of it was not. I am not faulting the company that I was in. I thank the hosts so much for their generosity. The problem wasn’t with them, the problem was with me.
I didn’t know myself. I didn’t know what I wanted or what I needed. I wasn’t comfortable anywhere. Truth be told, I loved the excuse to drink all weekend. I think everybody did. I am not sure anyone drank as much as me, but that’s not my business.
I was anxious.
I woke up with hangovers and shame and did it again on repeat for 3 days of the holiday weekend instead of two.
I needed to start the summer with a big splash. Literally, lol.
I needed to prove we were having So. Much. Fun. I needed my drinking, around others, in the daytime, to be super normal. I needed to compare myself to other drinkers so I could say “See? I am...
On February 20, 2020 I am celebrating 2 years of sobriety.
Two years ago, I was just existing, robotically going through the motions of life.
Today I really living out my dreams and I look forward to nearly everything.
My first year getting sober was absolutely epic.
I relearned how to do everything without alcohol.
My second year was epic too.
I transformed from someone who was surviving without alcohol, to someone thriving, who was no longer even thinking about drinking.
I didn't know this would be my life story, but I am so glad it is .
Let me to share the evolution with you.
On Day 1 of year 2, I announced my sobriety online to my private Facebook Community.
This felt like a big coming out for me.
I agonized and stressed over carefully choosing the right words for a whole year.
For the whole first year of getting sober, I was quietly, and privately working on being alcohol free from mostly the comfort of home.
The only people that knew my...